Friday, November 25, 2016

Living Through Cancer


 
I’ve been quiet on the blog front for quite a while. First, I felt there was so much noise during the campaign and election and I didn’t want to add to the racket.
For the last month, a different kind of turmoil has kept me silent.
There’s no easy way to say, the cancer I prayed was in my rear view mirror is back. Almost two years after finishing chemo and radiation, I start a second course of chemo early in December.
When I was diagnosed with uterine cancer in June of 2014, I wrote the blog post, After You Hear It’s Cancer, about my feelings and reactions to hearing those terrifying words.  http://4broadminds.blogspot.com/2014/06/after-you-hear-its-cancer.html
I don’t have all the words yet to describe what it’s like to hear it is cancer the second time around.
I wanted to be done writing about cancer, hoping I’d already learned and shared everything from this experience that I was supposed to learn.
But, life doesn't always give us what we want. So today, I write the blog I hoped never to write.
Each day, I’m reminded again I can live through cancer one day at a time. I know from experience that is easier when I am not alone. So, however you send positive vibes into the universe—prayer, chanting, holding in the light—could you send some of that my way?


17 comments:

  1. Carol my prayers are with you.. for I just wrote on my facebook page, that the power of prayer truly works... and then I read your e-mail.. so maybe this was meant for you.. hang in there.. you indeed are not alone...

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    1. Margo, the power of prayer truly works is exactly what I need to hear. Thank you for sharing

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    2. Carol,I have admired you from our first meeting at Friends.You are a strong interesting lady, My prayers will be with you through this journey..
      Dotsie








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  2. You WILL get through this again, Carol! Look forward to visiting you once you're situated and up for company. Praying and sending best wishes. Fondly, Helen

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    1. Helen, your support means a lot. I look forward to that visit.

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    1. Thank you Joanne. Every prayer boosts my hope

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  4. Dear Carol, You showed such courage and grace the first time, and all who love you share your sadness that you have to go through treatment again. We are inspired by your grit, faith, love of family and friends (and great medical care) and know that you will return to the cancer-free zone again. Lighting a candle, saying a prayer, sending positive thoughts to you and Jim as you begin the journey to recovery. God bless, my friend.

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    1. Courage and grit and grace--So many days I feel like I'm faking it till I make it. I'm touched by your kind words and that you are remembering Jim in your prayers, too.

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  5. Carol,
    I am praying for you and sending you love and hugs.
    Mimi

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    1. Thanks Mimi. I've felt your steady support over the last few years

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  6. Oh, Carol, I am so sorry to read this blog entry. As a survivor of colon cancer, I know what it's like to live in fear of the words " it's back". As grueling as the treatments are, you triumphed once and you can do it again. Take courage from all the prayers and good wishes from your friends and readers. I'm adding you to my daily prayers.

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    1. I know you have lived with and understand the ups and downs of getting beyond cancer. i really appreciate being remembered in your daily prayers

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  7. Carol - there are no words, and you are all about words. So sorry to hear you will have to endure chemo again. Prayers are with you.

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    1. Words and writing have helped me heal so many times in my life. One day at a time, I hope to find the words

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  8. Be at Peace

    Do not look forward in fear to the changes of life;

    rather look to them with full hope as they arise.

    God, whose very own you are,

    will deliver you from out of them.

    He has kept you hitherto,

    and He will lead you safely through all things;

    and when you cannot stand it,

    God will bury you in his arms.



    Do not fear what may happen tomorrow;

    the same everlasting Father who cares for you today

    will take care of you then and everyday.

    He will either shield you from suffering,

    or will give you unfailing strength to bear it.

    Be at peace,

    and put aside all anxious thoughts and imagination.

    St. Francis de Sales 1567-1622

    Sending my strong support and love. Feel it, Carol.

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    1. Thanks Nancy. I have come to love this prayer with it's calm message of hope and say it daily.
      Thank you for sharing it here.

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